What is it that I want? Where is it that I want to go? How would I know? The majority of us ask these questions ourselves from time to time. Sometimes we find the answers, but not long after we find ourselves asking the same questions again.

I love photography. It is my life and my passion. Nothing makes me happier then a picture telling a story or a picture that captures your attention for more than 10seconds. I have only captured a few of these moments so far. Quite a few people say they like my work and that I am too hard on myself by saying it is not good enough. Well maybe I am, but it is what keeps me going. I want to be able to tell a story every time. I want every picture to be a great memory. I guess that is what most photographers want to achieve.

I do not know if I am even going in the right direction. People say my work is good and that they like it. Is this true, or are they just saying it to make me feel good? How do I really know? So far I have been my worst critic. Maybe that is how it should be, I do not know.

I strive to be in the top spots for photography in my course; whether I am there, I do not know. So many people in my course want to do photography. Some of them want to do it, because they think it is an easy and relaxed course. Now these people have great marks in the other subjects in our course. I on the other hand am struggling with a subject or two. Limited spaces are available for second year in to all the disciplines of our art faculty. Now these subjects have almost nothing to do with photography what so ever, but they could prohibit me from not going where I want to be. Is that really fare? Why should I be denied a place in photography, because I can’t draw, paint or sculpt perfectly. If someone knows the answer please tell me now.

So that is the reason why I am hard on myself, because if I am not, where would I end up. A failure maybe or a money and time waster? If I do fail it is two years of my life missing. Sure it is not much, but money wise it is a lot.

Therefore, I ask myself again. What is it that I want? Where is it that I want to go? How would I know?